Assalamualaikum and hi, hope you're doing fine; whoever you are (:
I'm at the phase where every choices I choose, every actions I take and every words I said matters. Matters a lot in fact. Matters too much to other people around me that sometimes it drives me crazy on how things seem so complicated than it was before.
In fact, it really drives me crazy that there were those times(and still are) where I'll just sit still and let my mind wandering around, totally abandoning my phone. Well of course that didn't went well every time since my parents are mostly a busy pair and they need me to keep in touch with my phone to check on my other siblings every second. Almost.
So, what to do, uninstalled all the apps on my phone? Checked. But then that didn't work too.
It's just what I want to stress on over here, the thing that makes me feel drowning each time is the adult phase.
Like you know, I'm almost 18, I should have known what to do, how to act and which to prioritize right? Wrong. I didn't, in fact I still don't.
Being 18 is not a magical phase where suddenly you managed to figure it all out. Your life choices, your college/uni matter, your clothes, your job nor your menu for lunch. No.
It's a hard work to do where we just have to learn step by step, the problem is living in the era of modern technology, (I'm not pointing this out to rant about how my parents are being unfair and making me feel depressed blablabla no, actually they are awesome thank you very much especially my mum but of course there are those times, those moments where you are the one who's being ungrateful of everything thus this blog post) people around you has a knack of especially to our batch, the teenagers, they just think that OF COURSE, THEY MUST HAVE KNOWN. YOU GUYS KAN ADA INTERNET; SEMUA DI HUJUNG JARI.
GOOGLE LA.
Sorry I was just, yknow 12 hours of working sometimes make me a real grumpy person plus it was really cold (see? Ungrateful kid at its best) I couldnt feel the heat of my hands. So yeah, sometimes I just feel lost and clueless about everything, but what the heck man, its life, what else can I do other than keep going on living it? Its my life anyway. If I didnt make the best out of it, who else would? Its up to me. In the end, its me whos gonna live with the consequences, whether its the bad or the goods, God knows I dont know.
Thats the thing; no one knows. No one, will ever know. C'est la vie, cheers.
5.3.15
Me being me, as usual which is a total random. Muahahahaha
Assalamualaikum, hi.
It has been awhile............and yes I'm signing in right now as a girl who has finally free from all the SPM's burden. Yeayyy? Hahahahaha
Alhamdulillah I've managed to achieve 6As and em quite a few other grades hahahaha.
My benchmark was being set at 5As, as I told my dad the morning before the result was announced so alhamdulillah again I managed to surpass it, altho quite barely hahahaha
To be honest with you, for me, the most important thing is, after this, where to next?
So I was thinking of entering IIUM, only IIUM, since my sister is currently studying there and oh my God how I've fallen in love with that place at first sight. Masya-Allah, the sight is beaaauuutiiifuuulll. And wonderful. I feel the peace and oh-so-comfy environment at its best hahahaha. Maybe I am exaggerating, but well too bad you guys dont feel what I feel tho.
If, and if I didnt get any offer to its place, I'm going to take up form 6 instead. I knoww. More school. Psh. I dont care anyway tho. For me its not where you learn, where you study, bcs well in the end thats what you're gonna do: study. But yes (coughed) still IIUM please noticed me senpai (coughed) hahahahaha
Oh yes, the course is another different matter. Either law or law or I dont know, law? Gosh, its so hard. Its making my heart beats faster than the time where we waited for our results to be announced. Urgh.
SO em okay. Just wanted to do a little bit ranting while waiting for my mum. Just got myself registered for license classes btw, both motorcycle and automobile. Phew. What a sweat. I'm scared huwaaa.
Anyway, congratulations for all of you who has made it, we've made it yasssss alhamdulillah!
Alhamdulillah for another day.
Alhamdulillah for another play.
Heres to our future, bismillahirrahmanirrahim!
It has been awhile............and yes I'm signing in right now as a girl who has finally free from all the SPM's burden. Yeayyy? Hahahahaha
Alhamdulillah I've managed to achieve 6As and em quite a few other grades hahahaha.
My benchmark was being set at 5As, as I told my dad the morning before the result was announced so alhamdulillah again I managed to surpass it, altho quite barely hahahaha
To be honest with you, for me, the most important thing is, after this, where to next?
So I was thinking of entering IIUM, only IIUM, since my sister is currently studying there and oh my God how I've fallen in love with that place at first sight. Masya-Allah, the sight is beaaauuutiiifuuulll. And wonderful. I feel the peace and oh-so-comfy environment at its best hahahaha. Maybe I am exaggerating, but well too bad you guys dont feel what I feel tho.
If, and if I didnt get any offer to its place, I'm going to take up form 6 instead. I knoww. More school. Psh. I dont care anyway tho. For me its not where you learn, where you study, bcs well in the end thats what you're gonna do: study. But yes (coughed) still IIUM please noticed me senpai (coughed) hahahahaha
Oh yes, the course is another different matter. Either law or law or I dont know, law? Gosh, its so hard. Its making my heart beats faster than the time where we waited for our results to be announced. Urgh.
SO em okay. Just wanted to do a little bit ranting while waiting for my mum. Just got myself registered for license classes btw, both motorcycle and automobile. Phew. What a sweat. I'm scared huwaaa.
Anyway, congratulations for all of you who has made it, we've made it yasssss alhamdulillah!
Alhamdulillah for another day.
Alhamdulillah for another play.
Heres to our future, bismillahirrahmanirrahim!